Sandra,
There's so much that I wanted to write here. So many memories of you that I can't possibly put in words.
I really don't know where to start.
The facts couldn't register my head when Leanna called me on Thursday, telling me that you've passed away.
I guess reality hit me like three minutes later when I called Calvin to tell him about your death. But I guess I was still in denial. I even went to your facebook and check, hopefully to see a post from you that says, "Haha. All of you fell for that joke". But when I saw your facebook, it further confirmed that you're gone for real.
How I spent the night crying, Sandra. When I saw Leanna on Friday morning, both of us just cried. I guess we reminded each other of you. I'm sure you would have said, "Haiyo. Why are you all crying over me? I'm paiseh la", coz that's just very you isn't it, Sandra?
Remember you giving me an Apollo cake when I was hungry, telling me that it's almost the same like the Hiro cake I was looking for? I didn't tell you this, but every time I see that Apollo cake after that, I will be reminded of you and how you told me you got it cheaply in your hometown and I guess your favourite place on Earth, Malacca.
I didn't tell you this also, but because I love the taste of the Apollo cake so much, I actually brought three big packets of Apollo cakes with me on my Korea trip. I can say I survived that trip with the Apollo cake because I couldn't eat most of the Korean food. All thanks to you Sandra!
Remember you asking me to come to Malacca last semester, and I told you I couldn't back then coz I was having a crazy semester. But I told you, I will, because I haven't been in Malacca in a long time, but maybe next semester, when things are less hectic.
Actually, I was planning to visit Malacca this semester, because I have Mondays off. I thought of telling you that when I see you in person.
But I guess I will never get to tell you all this anymore.
What a sad thing this is. I finally visited Malacca this semester, but it was to attend your wake yesterday.
You know Sandra, even the journey to your wake was a funny one. We got lost so many times. All four cars kept going to the wrong directions and all of us in Aimi's car would get very stress when we face a junction with traffic lights because we will have to wait for a very long time. I bet you're laughing at us then.
Remember our favourite song together? Ironically, it's Say Goodbye by Jordan Knight and Deborah Gibson.
I know, you will be asking us not to cry over you. But how can we not cry when we've lost such a good friend?
You're one of the most genuine friend I ever had Sandra.
You came to my nuffnang event when you yourself have an event at the same time. You promised me you would come after your event is finished even thought I told you that you don't have to.
But I will not cry so much anymore. I'm sure you will not want to see us like this. But I'm going to continue grieving over you Sandra.
I will never get used to not receiving any more calls or messages from "Sandra". No more seeing you signing in msn with your funny display names like "Sandra!". No more me going "Sandraaaaaaaaa I'm hungryyyyyyy" and you going "Let's go Mama's Kitchen!" with that enthusiastic voice of yours and you will have your favourite Mama's Kitchen soup there. No more seeing you coming to morning classes with your sleepy face. No more of you walking silently and coming very close to me from the back, making me turn around and you will laugh your Sandra laugh.
No one can ever have the same laughter like you Sandra.
I am going to miss you Sandra.
May you rest in peace.
Sandra Wong
